Got home last night after spending two days with my Aunt, Uncle, Cousin, and Cousin’s friends. A great time for me as this is part of the support system that I have been blessed with. I’ve been emotionally and mentally “off” in the past several days and while I hadn’t quite admitted it. Not to others or probably more importantly not to myself.
I’m currently in a mental world where I have a few decisions to make, decisions I thought would never come to me. None of these decisions are inherently bad just… nuanced. I was able to spend some time with our rag tag group discussing some of such decisions. I also reached out to a chosen few friends for some advice and worked a couple of my “tools” on the subjects with some good results. I will continue to work my tools and explore these thoughts until I have reached a comfortable place.
The good in life typically does not come from having balance but rather from returning to balance.
A very wise friend in the above group stated to me last night during a discussion that the good in life typically does not come from having balance but rather from returning to balance. After discussing I honestly agree with this statement, returning to balance is a welcomed good feeling and often comes with a self examination recounting things that may have gone.
My sleep is still nowhere near where I would like it but after taking action on these items in my life needing decision and change I feel much more serene and prepared to face things in front of me. Another discussion with a different friend resulted in advice to view myself in each situation I might end up in after a decision in a yes situation for a few days, and then in a no situation for some time, take some notes and compare.
Often while discussing emotions it becomes human nature to respond with “me too” and while a bit of that did happen for the most part I received solid input. I value these people and the input I receive from them. If I were to sum things up in a short statement it would read “I opened up and gained introspection”. I’m not unhappy with the situation at all today and need to make more efforts to ask.