I told myself I was going to take it easy this weekend I needed to for my health and sanity. This move and everything else going on has me wound tight I’m tired and everything hurts and yet I’m wound.
I suppose I would not be fair to myself to call it a fail, I’ll just say “redirected goal setting”.
Yesterday I didn’t fare well on the take it easy goal but I’m happy with what I accomplished. I suppose I would not be fair to myself to call it a fail, I’ll just say “redirected goal setting”. After all I accomplished a lot just not my original intended goal!
Today I still started out on Much the same way, moving this and that and running back and forth from storage. Then, and don’t laugh I spent 3 hours sanding a small plank of wood by hand! This was my me time I was absolutely in heaven!
I sanded it tediously with a block to hold my sandpaper all the way up to 1000 grit! 14 different cycles and I was happy! In my own little world giving “life” to this project. I probably would have gone even farther except the rain came.
Okay, I’ve got boxes to go through anyway. What I found funny is I rushed around to find the softest towel I could find so I could lean the piece against the wall. Not for fear of damaging the wall but for fear of damaging the piece! Then back to move mode.
I was in auto pilot, not void of thought but void of introspection.
As I sit here over dinner I keep thinking about the day and how my overall mood changed at each step. Going through boxes of my past there’s a lot of steps hence a lot of mood swings. For the greater part of the day I was in auto pilot, not void of thought but void of introspection.
When I started sanding the wood I figured I would just start and let the project take a few weeks. Honestly I have no idea what I’m going to make it into a bench?? A nightstand?? The fact is I was so focused I felt the rest of the world didn’t exist. It didn’t need to.
I had my place, I was comfortable truly comfortable. I talked to the wood, gently feeling for any imperfections as I worked. Wow reading that last bit to myself it sounds a bit uhm sick. I was focused and yes, there were some imperfections that I could not fix. Strangely I accepted incapability rather than considering it failure.
For anyone interested lol the plank is a slab of “beetle kill” pine, the dark stripe up the outer edges are caused by a fungus that the beetles carry but yes the featured pic is my buddy!
When life gets rough like sandpaper let it make you smooth!
~Joe
